Happy now, karma?

Karma is the cruelest bastard I have ever known.

>____________________<

I know I’ve said it before, journal, but I’m saying it again. And this is why:

I mentioned in my last entry that my evil French teacher had assigned us a music video project. It was supposed to be due January 15, but my magical powers of persuasion got her to move it to February 5, almost a month later. :Dv

I brought my laptop to school two days ago so I could record the song with Sandy. We didn’t want anyone to hear us, so we spent an hour after school in this cold, secluded area of the building that echoed a LOT and took our time recording. And the result of this?

I want to put my head down and cry, it was that bad.

My voice is screechy and childish. It’s completely different from Sandy’s voice, which isn’t high pitched at all. That’s the bad thing about my singing. But that doesn’t mean I wasn’t in tune, because I was; I hit most of the notes. To be honest, Sandy was… flat. So flat that when we sang together in the chorus, it sounded like she had taken the lower harmony line when we weren’t harmonizing at all. I raised the pitch of the recording to make it less painful to listen to.

At least we finished, right?

But I still had to make the music video. Since we couldn’t film ourselves, I had to resort to animation. It took me aaaaaall night to draw the icky pictures on MS Paint, import them to Windows Live Movie Maker, and time it to the song. And by the time 6:25 am rolled by, I still wasn’t done, and I had to leave for school.

Well, when I got there, I wasn’t perturbed that there were no lights on in the cafeteria, since I’m usually the first student to arrive. But I was surprised shocked dismayed horrified to see that there were no cars in the parking lot. The very moment we pulled up to the curb, the principal herself came out and told us that

SCHOOL. WAS.

CANCELED.

T_____________________T Are you KIDDING me?? I stayed up all night working my butt off to do this assignment, and school was canceled because there was no power or heat? We heard the announcement on the radio about five minutes after.

Asdfghjklasdfghjklasdfghjkl.

Karma, whyyyyyyyyyyy?

Until next time,

~ Nana ;______;

P.S. No NEWS-related picture this time, because it doesn’t fit the mood. D:

Spreading the Love

“She’s freaking gorgeous.”

“Oh, she’s cute. I think I’ve seen her somewhere before.”

“She’s really pretty.”

“No, she’s not ugly. A little too much make-up, maybe, but not ugly.”

“She’s cute. I’d leave my girlfriend for her.”

Those above lines are all responses to a question I had asked various people, boys and girls and one college student. The question?

“Do you think this girl is ugly?”

And then I showed them this picture:

That’s right, they all thought she (<— I seriously typed that without thinking o.O) he was a girl until I told them the truth. Needless to say, I got a lot of :O’s.  But there was one boy — Christa’s cousin Denny — who, after staring for a while, asked me if that’s a guy because he’d noticed the muscular arm in the full picture. The other guys heard him and said something along the lines of, “That’s not a guy, you idiot.” XD

Kudos to him for figuring it out, though. I didn’t know who it was until AFTER I learned it was Tego.

I’ve been spreading my Tegoshi Yuya infatuation to my friends lately. I don’t want to, but I can’t seem to control myself.

I showed him to Corr, who squealed at his absolute cuteness. Christa, who gave the first comment I listed above about the Tegoshe picture, said the same about the guy version: “He’s freaking gorgeous.” It seems I’m slowly converting Nancy, a KAT-TUN fan, into a a fan of Tego after I let her watch the YamaNade opening.

This is Step One in my plan to have Tegoshi take over the world. :D

Usually, I try with all my might to keep any hints of my infatuation suppressed. I like to keep fangirling and real life separate, which is why I usually divide my entries into two sides: one for squealing and the other for rambling. I don’t have anyone to fangirl with, so I figured no one would care. But ever since I discovered that convincing Tegoshe picture above, I just couldn’t keep quiet. You can only fangirl in your head for so long, you know.

Fangirling is starting to creep over into real life, which is a cause for worry. A few weeks ago I randomly yelled out a Japanese phrase. Yes, desu included. I am NOT Japanese, dammit, and so I shouldn’t be using Japanese speech in real life.

And in History, the teacher was teaching us about WWI and gave us a date she thought we should memorize. Well, turns out I didn’t have to memorize it, because the instant she wrote “November 11, 1918″ as the end of WWI, I just about screamed in my head, “NOVEMBER 11 IS TEGOSHI’S BIRTHDAY.”

That’s one historical date I know I won’t have trouble recalling. ^o^

Well, my point is that I shouldn’t be thinking fangirly thoughts outside of my Fangirl Zone, i.e. anywhere not in front of my laptop. But for some reason, the amount of fangirling I do escalates when I’m reeeaaally busy in real life. Shouldn’t it be the opposite? I’ve been fangirling a lot this week and I have a lot of things due.

My French teacher isn’t trying very hard to hide that she’s trying to kill us, because she’d assigned us a fashion magazine project (due today) and a video project on conjugating verbs (Friday).

I stayed up for 24 hours straight because of that stupid magazine project. I’m proud of the end result, but I was falling asleep in all my classes: in English, where I sit in the very front; in History, where I sit in the very back, next to this genius sophomore who keeps getting A’s on her tests while I despair over my 76; during PE, which was our Drop Everything And Read (DEAR) period today because we do that once a day for seven days after we get report cards, and Franky told me I was snoring >.<; and in Pre-Calculus, where I don’t really listen anyway.

For the video project, Sandy and I are doing a parody and music video of a Paramore song. It’s absolutely ridiculous, but if it’s what the teacher wants…

Since my parents won’t let me film it with Sandy, I have no choice but to make an animated music video. Animation… is not easy. I have just a few days to finish the cracky lyrics, record the song, and learn how to make an animated video. I sense another week of sleepless nights. ;__________;

I’ll just try my best, I suppose.

And speaking of report cards, I did fine. Got an eighty-freaking-nine in AP Bio, just ONE POINT AWAY from an A-minus. Eh, whatever. It’s not the end of the world.

Lalala, listening to old NEWS songs right now because I miss them so~

Wahh~~ today is the first time I listened to NEWS’s “With Me” and the beginning instrumental scared the crap out of me. Don’t know why, but it reminds me of a murderer’s theme song. I’m alone on the first floor and it’s dark and it’s 12:30 in the morning so of course I’d be creeped out.

Tegoshi sounds incredibly pubescent and soooo different in “Beach Angel.” I almost didn’t know who was singing, but I can recognize his voice anywhere. ^////^

There needs to be a RyoPi duet of “Sono Egao Boku no Misete” at the next NEWS concert, because they never sing together. We’ve got Tegomass, KoyaShige, all we’re missing is RyoPi.

Ah, and let’s hope for a new album this year, too.

Until next time,

~ Mimi ^vv^

P.S. Forgot to end with a NEWS-related picture.

It’s so obvious which of the four is a Johnny. It’s all about the sparkles. :Db

Haha, the tiny little skulls all over his tie/neck ribbon/bow/whatever the heck that thing is around his neck. Oh, Tego and his skull obsession~

I might be wrong, but he looked like he was wearing lip gloss whenever they close in on his face.

To each his own, I suppose

Today was boring, so I think I’ll just fangirl for this entry. I’m so sick of school. :Dv

Just finished watching the second episode of Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge~~

Sunako/Aya is so pretty. *jealous* But I don’t like the way the actress portrays Sunako; she did a lot better doing Lady Sunako than regular Sunako. Reading the manga, I got the impression that Sunako is a mentally strong person and doesn’t shiver/cower as much as live-action Sunako does, and that her only sensitive spot is her face. I liked that Sunako a lot, hate the live-action one. But maybe I just need to give the drama a bit more time.

I absolutely abhor Sunako as a lady. Please stay abnormal forever.

I miss Kyohei’s host hair. D:

I’m starting to like Miyao-san aka That Ballet Guy more and more. I take back what I said before; he suits Ranmaru well.

Kamenashi, too. I think a lot of people still don’t like that he was cast as Kyohei, but he makes a good Kyohei to me. He’s got the right attitude, the look, and just enough cuteness whenever food is involved, just like manga-Kyohei.

Uchi. Handsome. That is all. ^–^

Takeru! Love that kid, but I forgot his name. I wanna squish his cheeks. ^^

I wanna know who sings that solo after the first refrain of the YamaNade version of “Love Yourself ~Kimi ga Kirai na Kimi ga Suki~” I’m not into KAT-TUN (too sexy, no member ai), so I have no idea who has what voice, except for Koki and his rapping. Haha, I accidentally typed “raping.” XDDD Well, whoever it is, I love his singing.

And of course it’s obvious that I love Tego as Yukinojo. I’m on my Tegoyuki high right now, like I am every time I watch this drama. ^o^ Although, I don’t know if it’s just me, but I think Tegoshi’s facial expressions are a tiny bit over-the-top sometimes. But because it’s Tego, I honestly don’t care. :P

Is that a mummified teddy bear printed on his shirt? I can’t really tell. But those pants and shoes are definitely, definitely, DEFINITELY

…taken from Massu’s closet. XD Just, you know, placed in the clothes dryer a couple times because Tego likes tight things. By now I’m just about convinced that Yukinojo’s wardrobe manager person consults Massu for fashion advice.

This scene cracked me up so badly. XDDD Probably because the clothes Yuki doesn’t show us are just as ridiculous as his outside wear. The pattern on it caught my attention, but I couldn’t see it too clearly. So I searched the brand on Google and found a much clearer picture of it. And, well…

It took me about ten seconds to identify what that pattern is. I had no clue until I saw that one of the images included three of those little squiggly stick things and realized, “Oh God, these are sex positions.” O______________O

What the heck is Yuki doing wearing such perverted underwear? I thought he was supposed to be the angelic one of the four. Ero-Ouji, I understand, but innocent little Yukinojo? They’re reeeeally tight, too. Does Tegoshi even realize what’s printed on Yuki’s underpants?

I think I’m gonna start archiving Yuki’s absurdly colorful outfits. I once saw someone do it for Toma’s character from Majo Saiban, and I thought it’d be fun if I tried it too. I wanna see how many of them there will be by the end of the drama. I was in such a rush to watch the first episode that I forgot to take shots from it, but I remembered to do the second one. Counted four different outrageous outfits from that episode alone. o.O

Umm… I should probably sleep now because it’s two in the morning. I think I’ll end today with one of Yuki’s, er, lovely expressions.

Until next time,

~ Mimi ^^

Utterly, completely fooled

I just read here that our dear Masuda Takahisa got himself his first girlfriend, at long last! Here’s her picture.

[credit to katrinasacay@lj]

Woah. Prettyyyy. *_______* Not bad, man; not bad at all. Way to go Massu for snagging such a gorgeous lady. :Db She must be some sort of model or something.

…At least, that’s all what I had been thinking before I looked at how the authoress tagged her post and realized that

SWEET BABY JESUS THAT AIN’T NO CHICK. IT’S TEGOSHI.

O__________________O

I honestly had no clue that the girl’s identity is none other than Tegoshi Yuya in a wig, make-up, jewelry, a white dress, fake nails, and (even though you can’t see them) high heels. I thought she looked familiar, like I’d seen her in a drama or magazine somewhere, or maybe a relative of a JE boy. When I found out who it truly is, my jaw dropped to the ground and stayed like that for a good five minutes, no lie.

How in the world can that guy look so good crossdressing? Is it for his Yuki role in YamaNade? Or does he just feel like it? Argh, I really want to know how he feels about his crossdressing habits.

Except for the muscular arm, Tegoshi looks exactly like a girl. Heck, he looks more like a girl than I do, and I think I look pretty feminine. Where have I gone wrong as a woman? TT.TT I’m positive that guys would start hitting on him if he walked outside that building. I showed the picture to The Pest (aka the straightest guy I know) and asked him, “Isn’t she pretty?” He grudgingly agreed that she is. And when I told him that it’s actually a guy, his face totally went like o__O and he just walked away slowly. Couldn’t help the smirk on my face. ^^

I wanna know how NEWS members reacted to this, if they recognized him or not. Does this mean there will be a return of Shigemi? Kind of hoping for a battle between her and Yuuko. :Dv

Hehe, I love how the picture of NEWS in the corner is positioned in such a way that only the whole of Tegomass is showing. ^O^ You can see Shige too but part of him is missing. :D

And speaking of Tegomass, their DVD is out — Tegomass 1st Live 2009 Tegomass no Uta!

I’ve already watched the entire concert and encore; haven’t touched the documentary yet. I love it, of course! They aren’t as exciting as NEWS is, but they have their own special brand of charm. And I actually know every single song they sang!

The one quirk I have about the concert, though, is regarding Tego’s voice: He doesn’t seem to realize how loud he is compared to Massu. They sound perfect when he’s singing the melody and low parts, but his higher harmony lines stand out way too much in some songs. It’s really evident in “Power of Earth,” for example. Maybe he’s just holding his mic too close his mouth, which is a problem he addressed in the NEWS Winter Party Diamond DVD.

I don’t mind it that much, really, since I’m in my school choir and we deal with harmonies quite a bit, but those people who maybe don’t know much about singing might mistake it for singing horribly out of tune. It happened before with Corr, whose likes doing harmonies and her voice stands out a lot in choir. I’m worried they’ll think Tego is bad when he’s just singing a little extra loud. But other than that, I loved every single bit of the concert.

Oh God, their voices in “Kushami.” *_________* I seriously started tearing up, it was so beautiful. Tegoshi sounded absolutely heartbroken; Massu sounded like he’d just found out that gyoza is now illegal.

It wasn’t until watching this did I realize why “Chicken Boy” is called “Chicken Boy.” Wow, I’m slow.

The thing Tegoshi did with his voice at the end of “Sayonara Boku no Machi.” <33333333

That dance for “Fantastipo” is one of the stupidest dances I have seen in a while. I loved it, of course. :D They looked like they were having so much fun.

I love that they can bounce around and sing at the same time and not sound like crap, and they got soooooo sweaty after they changed into their second outfits, especially during “Highway.” Sometimes they sweat even when they’re sitting; makes me wonder if it’s hot in there or not, since it’s summer and all. I like it very much when they’re sweaty. :Db

Honestly, I hadn’t been too fond of “Highway” before the concert (just because I love them that doesn’t mean I have to love all of their songs, right?), but watching it live definitely changed my opinion by 180 degrees. Absolutely in love with how rough Tegoshi made his voice and how much power Massu put in his singing for that performance. But as expected, without Kei-chan to guide them their MC part was incredibly awkward at times — awkward silences included — but in that cute Tegomass way. Tegoshi just kept repeating after Massu sometimes. Anxious to see how the documentary will go.

EDIT: Finished the documentary! My conclusion: Tegomass are clearly the most adorable in JE.

Watching the documentary, I don’t think Massu is all that dumb, despite what people say. He was the one to point out the KoyaShige mic thing, not Tego. (Heck, I didn’t notice the mic, either, and I knew what was going on.) Who says Massu is stupid? He’s always giving KoyaTegoShige bits of trivia they don’t care about during Soukon.

But WHY did they cut short the acoustic version of “Hajimete no Asa”? DDD: That’s another Tegomass favorite of mine, and what I heard of the performance was PERFECT. In a way, I guess I should be glad they started talking over it, because if I listened hard enough I could hear that they were very off during the bridge, with Massu not able to hit his notes and Tegoshi randomly breaking into falsetto.

I hope Tegomass can release something new soon. NEWS, too, because we haven’t had any new releases as a group from them in a while.

I’m watching and replaying their “Bokura no Uta” performance right now (one of my all-time favorite Tegomass songs and it’s absolutely addicting live) and I simply MUST comment on their fashion choices. It seems like they’re wearing their regular clothes and not Johnny’s outfits, thank God. Tego’s costume is so Tego and Massu’s costume is so Massu that it’s rather ridiculous.

(I’m not gonna talk about their second outfits because I’d probably never stop finding things to comment on. That was one of Massu’s most distracting outfits to date.)

Tegoshi — Where would he be without his customary boots and vest? And skulls, can’t forget the skulls. :D I spot one made of either rhinestones or glitter (can’t see too clearly) on his earpiece. Is he obsessed or something, to go so far as to get his earpiece embellished? Must have had it custom-made. XD What’s next, a tattoo?

(Ohh, his nails are pretty. Why must he be so pretty? D:)

There’s a huge sparkly pair of crossbones and a peace sign on the back of his vest. The vest itself is sparkly, too, and on the front he has these random polka-dotted lips. Yeah, there’s no doubt that this guy is in Johnny’s. When it’s not pinned back, I’ve been trying to figure out what he’s wearing in his hair for the longest time. Is that a headband? Looks like a braid to me. It’s cute. ^^

Massu — Rainbow, and lots of it. Nothing less from our Massu. XD His shirt is adorably colorful and would probably earn tons of wtf if it were anyone else wearing it. It only works because it’s Massu. ^-^ I think the jacket is personalized, judging by the glittery M on his shoulder and the typical Massu bow tie. Yellow shoes, yellow earpiece. Gee, I wonder what his favorite color is. Of course, Massu wouldn’t be Massu without his infamous baggy shorts. Umm… I can’t distinguish what else is on his shirt and jacket. There’s so much going on, they look more like collages than clothing. Maybe if I stare at it long enough I can figure it out:

(How hard must it have been to sing on those swings? It looks so uncomfortable.)

. . .

Now that I got fangirling out of my system…

Midterms are over! I can breathe again!

I have to say, that was the single worst week of high school I’d ever gone through. I don’t think I’ve ever done so badly before on my major exams. Usually I have confidence that I did well in at least one subject (last year, Geometry and French), but not this time. Let’s recap, shall we? This is in the order of when I took the exam.

English — A whole lot easier than I thought it would be. The quotes section screwed me up, though, which means I answered the short answers wrong. The essay, too; I messed up there because Mrs. English Teacher wanted us to QUOTE LINES FROM MACBETH FROM MEMORY. Probably got a B. EDIT: B-minus, worse than I thought.

Religion — I thought Religion was supposed to be easy. It wasn’t. TT________TT Last year, the teacher had multiple-choice questions that had such obvious answers that even an Atheist person could guess the right choice. For example, as one of the choices for “What are the three beings of the holy Trinity?” she included the names of three teachers in my school. The problem with the multiple-choice this time was that my answer sheet looked kinda like this:

A B A C C C B B D A A A A C C D D B B B D D D B D B B

I’m the kind of person to get really paranoid if the letters repeat like that, thinking that one of those multiple D’s should be an A, and it turns out that it’s not. I did a B-minus job, I think. EDIT: Got a 95. Why.

US History — Like English, a lot easier than I thought it would be. The teacher lied to us when she kept repeating that “Oh, no, I wouldn’t be evil enough to make you remember dates” and included a freaking TIME LINE. I kept finding hidden questions to answer after I finished. B-plus? EDIT: Yeeeeeaaahhhh, a 95!

Pre-Calculus – OH GOD THIS WAS BAD. Before I went off to take the exam, the senior class president was telling me about her Calculus exam the day before. It was a test so brutally long that everyone needed 2 hours instead of the regular 90 minutes. I thought to myself, “Well, that’s Calculus. Pre-cal is easier, right?” Boy, was I wrong. It took me an extra HOUR to finish, and even then I had to skip some questions because I forgot how to do them. Yeah, I so got a C on this. EDIT: Wtf, “5th highest score in the class”? How in the WORLD did I get a 93 when I didn’t finish? Lynn and I were the last two students in the school finishing an exam, and knowing Lynn, being the smartest in our year, she probably got the highest score.

AP Biology — When I walked into the testing room, I felt like I’d been sentenced to the death penalty and was walking the path to the electric chair. But it was waaaaaaay easier than her regular tests. That’s because she made up her own questions instead of using the AP ones. I thought I did great on the first few pages, but there was a gap near the middle where I didn’t know anything and just closed my eyes and pointed at a letter. I figured I got a C-plus, but then I went home and she already had the grade posted. Got an 82! On AP Bio! But… take a gander at this.

THIRTY-FIVE. DDD: On the take-home test I did during Christmas break. That’s the one time I get an F in that class, and that’s the one test she won’t let us correct. Why does fate like to screw around with me so much??? If it weren’t for that I’d probably end up with an A-minus in that class, but it dragged the grade down to a B. Well, it’s not like it matters, right? AT LEAST IT’S NOT A C.

French III — awgrkwarwkpgkvkujhn THIS EXAM WAS THE LIVING EMBODIMENT OF HELL. It included obscure phrases we never learned, vocabulary that she will completely mark wrong if you spell it wrong/miss an accent/give it the wrong gender, a writing part, and too many questions about nine pages of French history (entirely in French) in microscopic print that we had to memorize.

The French teacher makes it obvious that she thinks we’re stupid– like it’s our fault that we’ve had incompetent French teachers for the past two years — and yet she slams us with this Thick Packet of Horror called the French III exam. I skipped PAGES of it. That’s how bad it was. And she wouldn’t let us stay after to finish it. Definitely a C job. EDIT: Yep. Got a C as the actual grade. But I got some kind of bonus and she moved it up to 80. Definitely better.

I’m so scared for finals.

Until next time,

~ Mimi >_<

P.S. I never did mention what my Secret Santa gave me, right? Turned out that Savannah was my Secret Santa! She got me a notebook and pen, too, since that’s all I asked for. I have a nice collection of notebooks now. ^^ And she randomly threw in a small packet of chocolates, a mini deck of cards, and a small rainbow-spotted green slinky, probably because I mentioned that I like cute things. ^-^

I freaking love that pen so much, I don’t want to use it. It matches the pretty notebook! I couldn’t find the slinky when I took this shot because The Pest lost it, that bastard.

Studying: The Bane of My Existence

I tried to get The Old Man’s attention earlier today. He was watching a movie and couldn’t hear me. The conversation went something like this.

Me: Daddy. (Doesn’t that make me sound like such a brat? D:)
The Old Man: …
Me: Daddy!
The Old Man: …
Me: Daddy!
The Old Man: …
Me: YO, UGLY.
The Old Man: Huh, what?

Yeah. XDDD I wanted to see if he was paying attention to me. He obviously wasn’t.

Anyway, didn’t do well on the English midterm. As expected when you don’t study. D: I sure as heck am not going to make it to Harvard. Not that I want to go there or anything, but just saying.

I’M NOT SMART, PEOPLE. >.< My friends at the lunch table I regularly sit at (I’m the one rebel who refuses to sit at the Honors Table, unless Adele forces me) laughed at me when I suddenly declared that.

Religion and History tomorrow. Both troublesome subjects. Wish me luck, journal. I’m truly, TRULY going to study this time.

…But first, I ran across this picture of Tegoshi. I played around a bit (yes, instead of studying) and came up with this:

He seems thrilled about his discovery. :Dv

This was a first for me; of course it’s going to be a FAIL. At least I tried, right? The lettering took a ridiculous amount of time because I hadn’t a clue what I was doing.

But really, I’ve been wondering lately if the JE boys know what the fangirls are writing about them. Do the girls in Japan do it, too, or is it a foreigner thing? I’ve read and enjoyed some reeeeaaally strange stuff so far. JIN KNOWS ENGLISH, HE CAN TRANSLATE.

I need to go study diligently now.

Until next time,

~ Mimi :(

Midterms. Whee.

It’s past eleven-thirty at night right now!

Tomorrow is my English midterm! I haven’t studied one bit! I don’t understand one bit!

This is actually the midterm exam I’m LEAST worried about!

I hate life!

I need Tegoshi to keep me alive. T___T

Maybe, just maybe I can make it through the day.

Until next time,

~ Mimi D8

Sister!

You will not believe how much of a RELIEF it is to fangirl out loud!

I’m perfectly content spamming my online journal with my fangirly thoughts and all, but I didn’t realize how euphoric it feels to be able to say Tegoshi’s name instead of just typing it. It’s not healthy to bottle up the fangirl part of me, huh?

The reason I’m so excited is that I found someone in my school who knows what JE is! ^O^

Haha, I’m probably going to use tons of exclamation points in this entry because as I’m thinking up what to write, my inner voice is screaming everything to me with the enthusiasm of a little kid.

Anyway, I had been seriously thinking of dropping the Anime Club from my schedule, since I’m not that into anime and manga. We don’t talk about Japanese actors and dramas and all that “real” Japanese stuff; I figured that it wasn’t worth staying because I couldn’t talk about what I truly like. And besides, I didn’t think that anyone in that club has a clue about the world of JE or J-dramas.

The club, surprisingly, has very few Asian members, as one might expect it to. In fact, I love how diverse it is; you probably couldn’t tell if you were in the International Club or the Anime Club. It’s a medley of white girls, black girls, Asians, and Hispanics, with the white folk slightly dominating. I might have stayed in the club just for this reason, since I hate groups, towns, gatherings, any place where it’s mainly one race of people — diversity is good.

But then this one thing happened that made me decide to stay for good.

I was sitting at a table with the cute, bouncy bundle of a freshman Ellie, a crazy anime lover; J-rocker and Death Note obsessed sophomore, Nancy; one of the Korean international students and fellow junior, Hanna (an AMAZING artist); and the Chinese international student and Anime Club Representative, Cynthia, a senior.

I was discussing Ouran High School Host Club with Ellie and Nancy, since we all love it. At the same time, I was listening to a recording of Tegoshi’s “Koi no ABO” performance from Dream Boys. I absentmindedly mentioned that there has been rumors of an Ouran live-action. Nancy’s eyes opened wide, but Ellie, who is stuck in the world of anime guys, didn’t know what a live-action is. After I explained to her what it is, Nancy shocked me by bringing up “that Wallflower manga,” as she put it; she knows that it’s going live-action!

Those few words were practically lethal to me because I definitely overdosed on my excitement. I said that I know aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall about that upcoming drama, that my favorite person ever is acting in it.

I couldn’t help the “Oh, God, NO! :O” when Nancy asked me if it’s Kamenashi Kazuya. It was so weird hearing his name out loud but at the same time I was so happy because SHE SAID HIS NAME OUT LOUD OH MY GOD.

But then I was worried that I offended her (because if someone reacted that way to Tegoshi I would definitely suffer some silent fury) and babbled that it’s not because I hate him or anything; it’s just that he’s too sexy and gorgeous (haha, I feel like Sunako-chan) and just a little cute and he doesn’t laugh enough. I prefer cute over sexy. Though I have to admit that his smile is really cute.

Nancy then asked me about Akanishi Jin, do I like him? Again, may the gods curse my lack of control over my mouth because I hissed, completely without thinking first, “Akanishi is a slut.”

Well, so is Tegoshi, but he’s not known for being one.

Luckily, she only laughed and agreed with me. :D I love Jin’s reputation as a slut, though. Makes fanfiction so much more interesting. :Dv

Rapturously, I hugged my iPod to my chest, showed her this picture of Tegoshi from DREAM BOYS, and said he’s my absolute favorite. She looked at his name and said, “Ah, I’ve seen him before!”

I gasped so loudly it sounded really fake.

I then showed her this above picture of NEWS, since Tegoshi here is significantly more sparkly than the darker hot!Tego picture I showed her earlier. She exclaimed, “Oh, that one’s so cute!” and when I asked her which one she pointed at Tego. ^__________^ She also said that she knows who NEWS are. I went completely asdfghjkl over this because I’m not alone with my infatuation! Of course, she probably doesn’t listen to NEWS because she likes the rockier types, with Gackt as her favorite. It’s enough for me that she knows who they are.

It turns out she’s a KAT-TUN fan! Since I rejected Akame, she asked me if I like anyone in KAT-TUN. It’s not that I don’t like the members of KAT-TUN; I just don’t like their lack of member-ai. But she must have taken my hesitation as a negative, saying incredulously, “You don’t even like Ueda? But he’s adorable!”

I had to agree that, yes, Ueda is quite cute, and was even once my favorite member because he’s kind of like the Tegoshi of KAT-TUN (passionate about a certain sport, quiet onstage, cute, feminine-looking), but once I found out about his rather passionate anti-leggings comment, saying that girls should never cover up their legs with those hideous things, I’ve pretty much held a small grudge against him ever since.

Hey, I happen to love leggings.

He’s still cute, though. XP

We spent the rest of the meeting pouting over how pretty the guys are. XD All the while, poor Ellie had no idea what we were talking about.

. . .

In a complete 180-degree turn from the JE world:

Mama is bitching again. Her surgery has left her more bitter than ever, and this time, she’s ragging on my hopelessness.

It all started when Mama’s coworker (who has the same name as my nickname, Mimi) visited with her 8-year-old daughter. Her daughter has this huuuuuuuuge crush on The Pest, haven’t the slightest idea how screwed-up her brain is; she’s a bright young girl, way out of his league.

But a few hours after they left, Mama comments on how bright that girl’s future is gonna be. Then I cringe and wait for her to bring me into the conversation, which she doesn’t fail to do. For the millionth time, she tells me I’m smart — at which I snorted, quite unladylike — and that I should go to medical school and become a doctor. Again I tell her that medical school is only for people who truly, TRULY want to be a doctor, and I’m just not passionate about it.

I thought she’d leave it at that, but she brings up the matter to The Old Man while I’m sitting right there. She acts as though I can’t hear her when she rants to him about how stupid I am to doubt that I can ever be a doctor. She sounds absolutely furious saying that the only thing I like doing is writing, how it’s such a shame to let my “brilliance” go to waste on writing.

The Old Man goes quiet for a second like he always does, and then suggests that she watch a movie. I know he would like me to be a doctor too, but he’s supportive of my writing. I heard him talk to Mama earlier today, telling her that he’s going to try to find me a writing job for the summer or something. I have a good daddy, one who doesn’t drink or smoke, one who’s okay with sleeping in a different room than Mama, one who takes care of her and grins through her moodiness. If that new company decides to hire him, he’d be perfect.

The Pest is becoming harder and harder to control. He’s been hanging out with the wrong crowd, and unlike me, who can hang out with whomever and not be affected in the least, he’s acting like one of them. For instance, he steals his friends’ bags and messes around with them, he doesn’t do his work/does it crappily, and once he helped his friends VANDALIZE a car. He threw rocks at it, I think, while one of his friends peed into a bottle and hurled that at the car. D:

And then there’s me, who lately can’t do anything but sleep.

My family is dysfunctional. DX

Until next time,

~ Mina (because I can’t decide which name to use) (- o -)

They remembered!

First day of school of the new year. Whee.

I stupidly underestimated how much Christmas vacation homework I had, so I ended up pulling another all-nighter Sunday. I was falling asleep all over the place today. My life is so screwy. TT-TT

A lot of people’s Secret Santas forgot to bring in their gifts again, including mine (everyone seems to know who it is except me D:), so that will be tomorrow. Adele got this interesting body spray that smells like peppermint-vanilla candy and leaves your skin all glittery. She sprayed some on my shirtsleeve, and it still smells sooo good even though she did it ten hours ago.

I won’t lie; I was a bit upset that my Secret Santa forgot about me (oh God, story of my life right there). But when I stood up from my locker in the morning and turned around, Adele, Franky, Savannah, and Gail were standing right behind me. And then they gave me a red bag and told me that the four of them had gone out and got me a birthday gift.

ToT They remembered that my birthday happened during vacation! Even though I only mentioned it to them once, during French class. I usually never tell anyone when my birthday is because no one ever remembers, so just imagine how surprised I was that those four did remember.

They got me this absolutely beautiful notebook and a new pen and a random Tootsie Pop (and in cherry, too, my favorite flavor!) Franky said that there’s something very Mimi about the notebook, and that’s why they chose it.

I’ll definitely cherish it. Definitely. I haven’t a clue how I’m going to use it, though. I’m sure I’ll find a use for it in time. It’s too pretty to tarnish with my Handwriting of Atrocity.

Dangit, I can’t take good photos to save my life. >_____<

. . .

My entries will not be complete without NEWS members infiltrating it in some way. So I found these pictures of Tegoshi and Massu.

That look on Tegoshi’s face gives me the shivers. They’re good shivers, of course. ^O^ I’d love to run into him in a dark alley. Massu looks, er, kind of lost. And awkward. But still so cute. ^^ It was a good attempt at a serious face, though.

It’s funny whenever you compare these two side by side. Massu makes Tegoshi look so girly, and Tegoshi’s slight body makes Massu look chubby, even though he’s not. It’s the same in the magazine picture above this one. And I love the complete change of tone between the first and second picture. Still can’t decide if I like hot!Tego or cute!Tego better.

Hmm. Tegoshi’s scarf looks just like the one I got Kaylee for Christmas, since I was her secret Santa. Except hers is red.

Until next time,

~ Mimi :D

P.S. I feel like adding another picture, just because. This time, of a scene from Tego’s drama, Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge.

His angelic sleeping face is too adorable for words! Aww, his hand is all curled up like a baby’s. ^////^

But, but, but… why is Tegoshi sleeping with those girls? O_______O Definitely don’t remember that scene in the manga. I didn’t know Yukinojo-kun was like that, since he blushes madly whenever the topic of sleeping together — in any way, shape, or form — is brought up.

I wish I could read what those red words are saying. Since it has an exclamation point and all.

D:

Reflection of Self

Hehe, I feel like Massu right now. I’m wearing colorful clothes that don’t really match: white PJ bottoms with blue snowflakes and trees all over them, aquamarine flip flops (yes, flip flops in winter), a dark grey long-sleeved shirt, a purple t-shirt over that, and a checkered green and black scarf.

That’s really a typical Mimi outfit, the one I wear everyday, anywhere: long-sleeved shirt, t-shirt over it, a scarf, obnoxiously colorful socks, and depending on where I am, either PJ bottoms or jeans. I just realize that my style is Tegomass-like, meaning that my outfits usually include something black and tight-ish, maybe with skulls if I have any, just like Tegoshi; and then I’d wear loose-fitting pants and add something in a color-that-should-not-be, like Massu does.

I just watched bits from Johnny’s Live Countdown Concert. I felt a little upset that Ryo chose to be with Eito instead of NEWS, but I guess they just have to share him. But Ryo-chan’s so small that there won’t be enough of him to go around. D:

The Eito Rangers made me giggle reeeeeaaallly hard when they sang Arashi’s “One Love” with Arashi singing along with them, because although I’ve only heard that song once or twice before, even I can tell that they weren’t in sync with the music. But their performance was so lol inducing that I didn’t care.

Might just be my bias speaking, but I thought NEWS did the best with their borrowed song, singing KinKi Kids’ “Aisareru Yori Aishitai.” They wore their prince outfits again! Shige looked like he was working hard on his dancing.

I have no clue what song Arashi borrowed, but they did really great, too. Those kind of happy songs suit them.

Ikuta Toma was there! Looking really good! Clinging to BFFs Yamapi and Matsujun! I love their friendship. ^o^

I saw Nino and Tegoshi singing together. I like Nino. I clearly love Tego. Made me happy. I like that Tego is obviously picking up techniques from Nino. :Db

Tegoshi’s hair looked lighter. Or maybe it was just the lighting. Either way, he sparkled.

Massu was really cute during this concert. Like he is always. But you know, still worth mentioning. There was this one time where he is just staring cutely into space, and all of a sudden he realizes he’s being filmed and makes an “Oh, HEY!” face to the camera.

I minimized the window and let the audio run for bit while I did my History homework that I FORGOT ALL ABOUT, Godhelpme D:, but I opened it back up, very confused, when I heard the beginning of “Kibou~Yell~” because it sounded emotionless and weird and butchered. And then I just about died laughing when I saw that KAT-TUN was the group singing it. They looked so AWKWARD singing such a happy song. I think they were trying to sing it in their usual sexy voices. Jin wasn’t even dancing. -_-;; Ueda looked cute, though, with his hair up like that.

. . .

Anyway. So, uh, my life.

Mama came home from the hospital today, still weak but looking pretty and young as ever. She can’t cook yet, so I have to endure several more days of trying to make dinner with The Old Man. When you combine his simple palate, my stubbornness and failure at everything related to cooking, and The Pest’s general pestering, things can’t go well. Mama hated the food we ended up making.

The doctor had asked her if she has any children. She said she does, and the doctor said that she wouldn’t be able to hold them for at least another week. Mama must have laughed and told the doctor that her children are 13 and 17. I imagine here that the doctor lady blinked, confused, because she then asked why are Mama’s children so old when she’s so young?

Ha, Mama turned 46 in September.

D: Why didn’t I inherit her pretty genes? She has flawless, porcelain skin, no wrinkles at all. People tell me all the time that I look like my dad, and the first time this happened I panicked and thought, “I look like a man?!”

I’m just hoping with all my might that I’m like Tegoshi, who was an ugly duckling when he was my age, and then suddenly matures into the most beautiful one of them all (haha, so biased here) after NEWS’ hiatus.

Well, I don’t have time to think up resolutions right now because I’m in my holy-crap-school-starts-in-a-few-days-and-I-didn’t-do-my-homework mode. Jeez, you think I’d learn after all these years. -_-;; I have a lot of work. A LOT. I stayed up until three-thirty in the morning yesterday and DIDN’T DO AN OUNCE OF IT. WHY AM I SO STUPID.

I’ll type up my list of goals later. Right now, I’ll do a short reflection on myself, in groups of tens because it’s 2010.

Things I Like About Me

1. My writing skillz.
2. My perfect nails.
3. I’m abnormal.
4. I’m cute!
5. I always try to make people happy.
   (Argh, this is really hard, thinking more than five. DX)
6. I’m easily moved.
7. I have no enemies at the moment. All the louder, more popular people in my school seen to like me, don’t know why. (How the heck did the senior class president learn my name? O_o) Makes life easy when your class president loves you. :Db
8. My naiveté.
9. My humbleness.
   (Just one more, I can do it!)
10. My magical powers of persuasion. (I talked a teacher out of giving me detention… twice!)

Wow, took me twenty minutes to think of those. -_-

Thing I Don’t Like About Me

1. My scratchy, high-pitched, unpredictable voice.
2. This stupid inferiority complex. XP
3. That I unconsciously talk to everyone (and I mean EVERYONE: The Pest, friends, teachers, parents, my PRINCIPAL) in a condescending tone.
4. I’m chubby. TT-TT
5. I’m lazy. VERY.
6. That my teeth is white enough and straightened, but my two front teeth are a bit bigger than the rest, so whenever I sing all you can see are those two teeth and I look like a bunny.
7. I’m not smart at all.
8. My dislike of talking. (I’m not shy, but I HATE talking, particularly when it’s in front of people. Probably because I hate my voice.)
9. My hair. IT’S FALLING OUT, MAN. D: Because of all the stress. Also, it stays flat no matter what I do to it. And it’s long. I hate long hair, why do I have long hair?
10. My awkwardness around people.

That one only took five minutes, as expected.

Ways To Improve Myself

1. Learn new and better writing techniques.
2. Acquire a singing voice like Tegoshi (just, you know, not a manly one).
3. As always, lose weight.
4. Upgrade from cute to pretty.
5. Fangirl less, study more.
6. Drink lots of water. Water always helps.
7. Express my emotions better.
8. Redecorate my room so that it actually reflects who I am. It’s currently emptier than a skull’s eye sockets.
9. Lose the stage fright and talk in front of my class without wanting to faint.
10. Manage my time smartly.

I would have done more than just those three lists, but I really, REALLY need to finish my History. According to my schedule, I was supposed to have finished last Wednesday. Why do I bother making these stupid schedules when I Never. Follow. Them.

Oh well. I have tons of years to improve myself. Time for my usual picture of someone from NEWS.

Love this Tego pic to bits. <33 But his arms are so manly compared to his face. o_o

I think he motivated me enough to finish my History work before three in the morning. It’s one-thirty right now.

Until next time,

~ Mimi ^^

Fingers Crossed

Mama’s having the surgery today. I’m crossing the fingers of both hands that it will go as planned.

And I really should start my Christmas vacation homework now.

But I’m not gonna. :Dv

Not even a smiley-faced Tegoshi will motivate me.

Well… maybe a little. XP

Until next time,

~ Mimi o_<

P.S. A few days ago I asked The Old Man to take me out so I can get myself birthday and Christmas gifts, since Auntie Kim gave me a hundred to spend. Of course, the Old Man couldn’t refuse; he couldn’t get me anything this year, so this was his way of making it up to me.

True to my abnormal nature, I didn’t get any kind of tech-y stuff, like I’m sure most normal people would. Instead, I went to Office Max and got new pens, mechanical pencils, lead refills, index cards, and a hardcover notebook to serve as a writing journal. Totaled a little over $30. I just gave the rest to The Old Man since I’d either lose it or The Pest would steal it.

Every writer is supposed to have a “special pen,” so I got one. That orange and white one up there. It was $7, which I think is wicked expensive for just one pen. I took a close-up shot of it:

My first non-plastic pen. =D It’s chubby (and so is my hand, but that’s not the point). ^-^ It’s also heavy and so pretty that I’m afraid to write with it — but I guess I have to, or else it can’t really be called my special writing pen. I’m scared that I’ll accidentally knock it off the table and whatever the smooth, shiny orange and white part is made of will crack. And then I would cry. D: So maybe I’ll just lock it up and never ever write with it.

On another note, I love how perfect my nails are. They’re really the only things about me that I like, stupidinferioritycomplex. DX